of God to those who were initially outwardly hostile towards him because of the message of the gospel: "...that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldy to make known the mystery of the gospel for which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak bodly as I ought to speak." The title also underscores the battles that the author has trying to find and maintain her voice during various periods of her life.

Of the thirteen songs on the compact disk, 5 of them are what would commonly be considered "gospel" songs, while the other 7 are what Lillian calls "life songs" because they are narratives of her family's life journey together. The compilation of "life songs" will strike chords of familiarity with people regardless of gender, race, nationality, or social ranking. One song describes the earnest deisre of her parents (who left the deep south during the long exodus recorded in the books of U.S. history as black people sought freedom and opportunity in the North) to persue a life with more opportunites for themselves and the children they planned to have. Another song conveys the the very common frustration of feeling as though there are simply not enough hours in the day to do all that needs to be done in order to balance family and work responsibilities.

Lillian has numerous hobbies and areas of interest. She enjoys reading and writing, she is an artist who works in water color and oil, she is an avid athlete who enjoys biking, golf, running, and many other sports. She has recently taken up chess and has yet to beat her youngest nephew, Brian Buckley, at the game, but she will keep trying .

Lillian learned improvisational singing as a young child while attending the Faith Mission Church of God in Christ on Deer Street in Portsmouth, NH. The services were non scripted gatherings bursting with songs